Flashback: What is my primary goal in life?
Mar 9, 2008 Life
Warning: If you hate drama, don’t read the post below.
“What is your primary goal in life?” The transparencies stated at the start of our discussion in Behavioral Science. Then, four choices were given: a) To finish the medical course; b) To make lots of money; c) To be with our loved ones; and d) Others, and we were let to explain our answer.
I am sure, if it were not for the choices given, I will be having a hard time answering the question. Sad as it is, but, there comes a point in my life, even at this stage, where I don’t really know what goal should I direct my mind to. I didn’t even plan to go at this field. I just waited for a sign from God if I was suited for this field. He lit the green light so I gave it a “go”. Before, half of me wanted to pursue my desired course which is on Information Technology. That was the time when I admired hackers and aspired to be one them. No joke. I admired how they sneakily hack bank accounts. But the other half wanted me to stay in my current field. This happened before our Upper Respiratory Module examination which was last Thursday; I was telling my friends that I am already tired of sleeping late at night, studying. My brain’s already tired. Then I asked for a sign again. If I passed the exam, God really wanted me to stay, but if failed, maybe I will rethink things over. I wasn’t confident of what I have studied. I haven’t finished studying my anatomy. I haven’t reviewed on the diseases we tackled. When I took the exam, I was not equipped with the stockpile of knowledge I should have accumulated before taking the exam. There were even parts where I was closing my eyes and the letter that kept appearing on my head was my answer. There were like twenty to thirty items. And in our case, if you missed those points, you’ve already missed a lot! A point is already significant especially when you only got 59% for the exam. My school is that stern.
But I guess, God wanted me to stay. So I will stay. *shrugs* See how indecisive I am? I lay it all to God’s hands. Besides, being in my field now adds spice to my always-boring life. And also, according to an author: “what man really needs is not a tensionless state but rather a state of strife and struggle for a worthwhile cause and meaning”.
Anyway, back to my goal in life. From the choices, I instantaneously picked “to be with my loved ones.” Most of the class answered letter A. Then I told myself, it should be my primary goal, too, at this stage. But then, I still have hesitation for the path I chose. And I love my family that much so I chose letter B instead.
Letter B was alluring; especially at times like these where money can hardly plays hide-and-seek with the people. No one chose it. Perhaps we only wanted play “safe”? But, no. One of my classmates was right. If we wanted a lot of money, we shouldn’t be subjecting ourselves from the adversities medical school brings. If it were my primary goal in life also, I should be having a job now, making money. Perhaps, it’s one of those secondary goals? Haha.
You were bored, I know. But don’t blame me, I forewarned you.
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Tags: Goal in Life, Goal Setting, Personal, Planning, Setting Personal Goals
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