1. I like myself. Definitely I do. I was born with four limbs, with complete hearing and blessed with eyes. I am also here in this college, that’s so much to be thankful for. I know where I am going, what are my aspirations in life. My life is definitely likeable. I enjoy life most definitely.

2. People can trust me. Though there are times that I unconsciously burst out a secret, I can still proudly say that I am trustworthy.

3. I never put up a good front. What people see outside is what they will also dissect inside.

4. I trust myself – my feelings, my deeds, and my abilities.

5. I enjoy people – with different ethnicity, religion and beliefs. I can mingle with everybody. I never was choosy when it comes to friends. As long as I feel comfortable talking with him/her, I befriend him/her. I never was snob to anybody. I never considered social status as a requirement for friendship.

6. I know what I want in life and how to fulfill them. Being a medical doctor was a childhood dream. I have met many obstacles but never gave up. There even came a time that I thought I couldn’t make that dream a reality. That was when I received a low grade in Biology back in high school. But fate led me to the right path – for my choice, i.e. on the biological field, one step away from medical school. And now that I am here in medical school, I would give my utmost best to do good and eventually fulfill my dream – that is, being a doctor.

7. I enjoy being the sex I am. When I was in my elementary years, I was boyish. I thought being a member of the opposite sex was an advantage since as I have observed, there were few restrictions from parents. Being a girl would be less fun, so I thought. But when I was starting to reach my teenage years, I realized that it’s fun being the sex I am. I started to act a typical teenage girl do. And now, I am so much enjoying being a woman.

8. Ups and downs, I never lose my grip to God. It maybe is the cause for not being discouraged about life. I am thankful that He gave me parents who are unceasingly extending hands when I am in need and people, especially friends, who made me feel blessed with all life’s splendor. I am also blessed with wonderful siblings who serve as inspirations for this life-long journey. What more could I ask for?

9. When I was in my undergraduate course, I was a member of the Red Cross Youth – Iligan City Council. It was a fulfilling task, especially when you subject yourself to the true service to the community. It was fulfillment when you receive gratitude from people – because you have helped them. It’s a different feeling beyond comparable.

10. When I do a job, I finish it the sooner possible. Though procrastination butts in sometimes, I see to it that I shall keep a pending task done. I put myself into the job by dedicating my time for it to be finished. I enjoy work most of the time especially when my interest is into it.

11. I especially enjoy nature – it’s maybe one of the factors why I survived the grueling years in Biology. I took up courses (major subjects) before which dealt with nature like Mammalogy, Wildlife, Ecology, etc. I enjoyed field trips. It’s a blast and at the same time a fun learning.

12. I consider everyone’s opinion. I never insist my own as the ultimate. I am open-minded to criticism and suggestions. It makes me accept my mistakes and defects calmly, examine them and weigh things so as to make moves accordingly.

13. I harbor grudges sometimes. If it’s still ‘fresh,’ I would be bothering myself about it. But in the long run, I just let it pass. The damage has been done they say. But I was never revengeful.

14. I take offense, but it could depend on its nature. If it’s at my range of tolerance, I just let it pass. But if it’s already beyond, I react in a way I know is appropriate.

15. Sometimes though, I get afraid of being hurt by others. What if I wouldn’t bear the pain enough? Am I ready enough to deal with it? Would I act impulsively or timidly? Those were few questions that I could ask myself every time I think of hurting by other people. So as to overcome this, I shall be willing to accept the fact that I could get hurt, intentionally and unintentionally. It’s a part of being a person and it’s needed to improve me as a person – my emotions and my personalities. Maybe, I should examine things, why am I hurt, is it because I have done something wrong that I am getting hurt in return? Should I forgo it? Or should I accept it as a challenge to improve myself for good?

16. I get so pessimistic at times. It’s one of my worst enemies. I am a worrywart who tends to worry on everything. But I realized now that I shouldn’t be subjecting myself to nonsensical worrying, it will do no good. I’ll just get discouraged. And I shall not fear the future because I am doing the right thing. Now if fate wouldn’t agree, I shall see things clearly, evaluate them. Maybe God has a plan that is more suited for me. I should take things as mere challenges that I could battle out to hit my goal.

17. Sometimes also, I get dependent with others for ideas that I eventually I unknowingly ignore my rationale. I guess it’s not so bad a thing though. It’s normal to consult other for ideas but see to it that you contribute also and you also know how to take a stand on your own. That ‘other’ wouldn’t be there most of the times so you should be prepared to take things on your own.

18. I still am developing my talents and skills. I want to try new things, all things, like I want to know how to tune all music instruments, so far I know how to pluck a few chords on my guitar but still I am on my learning stage, and be a linguist and learn all languages. I was also a member of the Philippine Union of Martial Arts back in my undergraduate years but due to some reasons, I stopped or more appropriately said, I was forced to stop. Some of my relatives (especially aunts) disagreed with the idea of sending us in a karate school; it’s not a sport for girls they said. So I am only up to junior green belt. I want to have a black belt then but they forbid me to attend classes again. I felt so hemmed in at those times when I was freshly sent off for karate school.

19. I unconsciously do the wrong things. It’s inevitable. Sometimes we say things that should be better left unsaid, do things that should be better off undone. Regret is what comes next. But if we learn to consider things, maybe those mistakes are of great importance in self-improvement; and so that next time we would do things just to avoid committing the same mistakes again.

20. I have also trouble controlling myself. Like I can’t get myself to be out of this internet thing.

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Internet is EVIL, don’t you think?

1. It’s a huge temptation. I need not cite examples why did I say so.

2. It’s time-wasting. Imagine?! You were just chatting with some friends, posting on message boards, blogging, and visiting some sites and then you suddenly came to your mind, cursing yourself because you already spent 7-straight hours in front your PC. “Stupid! It’s our session tomorrow yet I didn’t bother to read some of our topics. Study now, bitch!” But when you scan your books and encounter some boring words, especially those that requires you to get a dictionary and search them up, you’ll feel sleepy. Sometimes, unknowingly because maybe your eyes are tired, you fall asleep that when you woke up, you were late for school already!

3. It’s costly. One of our parents’ monthly habits are nagging about the internet bill, especially when you’re using broadband connection. You can still hear the voice of your mom, half-yelling, “Because of this, *holding the bill* you’ll have a 10% less from your allowance.” But it’s fine with us, as long as we have internet connection. We can endure the nagging and a less from our allowance but we can’t endure the thought that we’ll be offline for months.

4. It ruins some lives. When you have ample time, why don’t you try visit some internet cafês, you would think for a moment that you’re at a war zone. But all you see are students, busy clicking the mouse, playing Counter-Strike.

In conclusion: Yeah, internet is evil. But it’s within us if we submit ourselves to it’s domination.

These were my views when I had difficulty dividing my time between studying and blogging. This was during the peak of my blogging addiction. But now I learned the benefits of internet, I think I should post an entry about “Why I think think the internet is good?”

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This was my post where I provided “some tips” to my readers if they are planning to watch a movie with their fathers. The post was in reference to my dad. We were watching Troy and Kill Bill Vol. 2 at that time, when it was newly released in CDs, when suddenly dad came in, spoiling the fun by asking a lot of questions and expressing his “thoughts” about the movie.

So here are the tips:

1. If you’re watching a sequel and he happened to haven’t watched the first part, tell him beforehand that it is a sequel. Well, you wouldn’t want to reiterate the whole part 1, right? Just tell him you’ll borrow the part 1 next time so he can watch it.

2. Do not watch any foreign film with subtitle in it with him; dads have tendencies of reading aloud every word.

3. Should you feel like watching sexy romantic movies, make sure your dad isn’t home. You wouldn’t want to receive another dose of his sermon, right? And chances are, you’ll end up always fast forwarding when there are kissing and bed scenes. Mwahaha.

4. Don’t watch a comedy film with your dad, especially during night time, you wouldn’t wanna create mayhem to the whole neighborhood, right? Dads have tendencies to give out a boisterous laugh even at a very common punch line.

5. Don’t watch a sci-fi movie with your Dad; chances are, he will be repetitive on questioning every extraordinary moves of the lead act.

6. Don’t watch a porn movie with your dad, I will think you’ve lost your sanity if ever you did that. Haha.

7. Don’t watch an action movie with your dad; he has tendencies on expressing his criticisms.

8. Don’t watch a drama movie with your dad; you might end up fighting the tears, should you feel like crying.

Bottom line is: Don’t watch a movie with your Dad. Haha.